Thursday, August 23, 2012

I've haven't been posting lately. I'm in a bit of a sad state. Two of my close friends have given up on me. I spend my day at work, then I got home and go to bed early because there is nothing else to do. It's really hard for me to make friends. I'm apparently too scary to approach, and I'm really shy and awkward to talk to people.

Work is really busy, we're doing annual renewals of journals. I still don't think I have to hang of it, and I don't want to bring down my team.

There are no more Goth clubs to go to on the weekend, because we can't find a venue. I haven't DJed in ages, because The Loft's venue, Geisha, has decided that Sunday night is for live music :(

I'm just trying to keep together.


Laura Morrigan said...

That sucks, I'm sorry. It's hard like that, I've been through stuff like that with friends in the past. I hope you will find a venue soon, maybe on a different night.

Alexandriaweb said...

I'm sorry to hear things haven't been going so well for you.
I hope things look up for you soon.

Nebel Finsternis Violet said...

I know how it is, to do the every day things and feel completely empty at the end of the day, having a hard time going to sleep because all the harsh feeling flood you. I know.
But take in ,ind that I personally find you a really interesting an unique person, and i think that in times like this it's good to have a some sort of hobby or perhaps a new thing you can be into. It can be anything that will spend your time nicely- knitting, a good book, drawing, even crafting and doing projects you forgot about and wanted to make before.
What i'm saying is, I have been through depression myself and it's a hell taking a step out of it. You just have to remember that some effort will do you good and get you out of this crap.
I hope this made sense. I'm not sure how to tell you this, but since I began to read your blog you have been dear to me as if we have something in common... sorry if this sounds intimidating...

BellaDonna said...

I've been lurking around and enjoying your blog, think I've commented just once. I also have very few non-online friends because I don't make friends easily, either. But you sound like a very cool and interesting person, don't give up! I wish we lived closer, I'd love to get to know you better.

Have you thought about organizing a "goth meetup" kind of group? Since you don't have club venues available right now, maybe you and other goths you know could organize other types of weekend stuff? We have a group like that here, and while it has a few bumps, and it's not perfect, it's better than nothing.

Eco In Black said...

I've also recently started reading your blog. I look forward to "Friday I'm in Love" every week. You're my friday afternoon DJ!

Boo on losing time at your club. I hope you find a new venue soon.

Natalie said...

Thanks for your comments everyone :)

Nebel Finsternis Violet: Thank you so much, you don't know how much your words mean to me :) I'm trying to get more into my craft things and I was thinking about doing a night course. I would love to do more things with clay as I haven't worked with that medium much.

BellaDonna: There used to be a 'Perth Goth Meetup' which I was the organiser of. When I went to the UK no one else stood up to be the new organiser so the group kind of died.
I have lots of friends online who live on the other side of the world.

stardustcastle said...

Hi Natalie, I'm so sorry to hear about your situation. I have been there before and I know how you feel. I've lost a few friends in that same way. So, thinking of you. :o) The craft classes sound like a good idea, if there are any sewing groups or other community groups you could join, it would really help too.
I live in Australia too (Melb). Unfortunately not in Perth. You should come visit Melbourne someday as there are a few different goth clubs here and some other events that would really be your type of thing.